tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23814032258946374892011-11-27T15:15:08.860-08:00Relationship stuggles, over whelming feelings you have, how do you take the next step, how long will you feel like this, It feels like your dying slowly inside.stength withinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11823766746288105350noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2381403225894637489.post-66640242394996210572011-05-20T14:32:00.000-07:002011-05-22T03:18:59.587-07:00Ever been hurt more than once from the same guy, well I'm one of them? how many times was I going to let him hurt me before I woke up? Well here is just one of my many stories I would like to share.<br /><br />We were having major arguements to the point where my partner wasn't coming home, this was out of character but anyway I&nbsp; thought we would work it out and get on with it. I needed a night out and went down to the local pub then off to a party at a friends house. On the way I noticed my partners car driving around so I followed it, he pulled into his sister inlaws house and got out. When he noticed it was me&nbsp;he flipped, all of a sudden the passenger door opens and a female hops out and ran away, I was in shock and tried to chase her to attack her but my partner forced me down. I will always remember that night, I felt betrayed, hurt, lost and wanted to curl up and become lost to the world. I locked myself in my room and cried my self to sleep for 2 weeks, during that time my partner would come around and rub it in my face. I wasn't thinking clearly, all I knew is I still loved him and wanted him home, silly thing was I was begging him to come home, this continued for another 3 weeks giving me false hopes. I couldn't care for my children so my family looked after them until I got better. My family tried to support me as much as they could and also told my partner to tell me where I really stood in his life. <br />After 7 yrs together and 2 children later he&nbsp;told me he loved me but he wasn't inlove with me? I felt like he ripped my heart out and tossed it across the room, my body went numb, my tummy was doing flips and I was gasping for air, I was having an anxiety attack once again. I stood up walked in my room and closed the door, I remember slidding down the door, curling up and crying myself to sleep again but this time when I woke up I felt like a burden had been lifted off my shoulders and&nbsp; I could see alot clearly, that was it I finally found my inner strength and finally accepted his decision. Although I still didn't no where I was going from here all I knew is I was on my own with the kids. <em>to be continued</em><br /><em></em><br /><em><a name='more'></a></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2381403225894637489-6664024239499621057?l=loveissopainful.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>stength withinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11823766746288105350noreply@blogger.com0